Sunday, February 22, 2009

I'm back...Kinda

Kinda. After such a heartbreaking start to the week I thought I would top it off with some out patient surgery...ya know just for fun! Actually, it's a surgery I have been looking forward to forever but you don't really want the details :0) The timing has just been pretty lousy.

I'm trying so hard to play catch up and read what everyone has been up too for the past week. You've all been busy, busy people! If my comments are late and sorta out of touch I'm so sorry.

Thank you all so much for your kind words & encouragement. Even though we have peace over the decision we made, it was still one of the hardest things I've ever done. I have always been a pretty open mouth/book kinda girl, so keeping secrets is not easy for me. We were so excited!!! It's odd though that so many people receive referrals that they choose to decline and yet no one really writes about it. I guess because I've never been much of a private person I just don't get it when other people are. This has given me some understanding though. I have soooo much respect for those of you who wait until all the paperwork is officially done before you tell anyone.

Maybe, it's not a matter of privacy. Maybe people worry that this part of the process may shed a negative light on the program in general. Oh, how I pray not. There are so many children with special needs that need homes. It's just part of the process. Social workers and family coordinators are trying to match parents and children together and sometimes the matches just don't fit. I can't imagine trying to do the job they are faced with. But over and over families are formed and lives are changed in amazing ways. Please, don't let our enemy use this to cause confusion or doubt. Praise God for special needs adoptions, even when they are not easy!

I know beyond all doubt that we simply got swept up in the emotion of it all. When I look back on it now, there were red flags going up everywhere and we choose to over look them. We fell so in love with her, so fast. We'll learn, maybe we're just slower than others :0)

This much I have learned.
  • God is still God.
  • It WILL all work out for the good.
  • There is a family that is rejoicing over a VERY beautiful little girl, right now!
  • We will praise God for our daughter, in His perfect time.
  • When we receive another referral, I will TRY and be patient before I scream it from the roof tops.
  • God is worthy of our praise in ALL our circumstances!


Kristi said...

I'm praying for you guys as you move on from this heartbreak. Most likely she will always be in your thoughts. But if God didn't give you a full peace about her being your daughter it is because she belonged to someone else and your little girl is still waiting...
Believe me, I'll be rejoicing with you when you find her!

socialworkbarbie said...

Wow, Lisa, I just read your updates. I know you must be hurting, but I'm glad you found peace in that song (it's one of my faves, too!). I am still confident that one day I will come visit you and your growing family! :) Let me know if I can help in any way!

Sharon said...

Hi Lisa,
WOW...I just caught up on your blog after I saw your comment. I am SO sorry you have had to experience this hearbreak. Mark and I were just talking about a little boy the other day that we thought might be ours. The situation was a little different, he came across the "list" and we asked to see his file. We were
2nd in line and the first family was his. He has been home now over a year and we were blessed to be able to connect and get an update on him. We didn't have any info on him so it wasn't as hearbreaking as your situation but now that we have the child God DID intend for us it all makes sense. I will be praying for you as you continue to "wait"...